I went to D.I. last week. I found my pink pants again. They were exactly the SAME pants... size and all. I had a moment of self control and didn't buy them because just like last time, they were still a size too big so I will rarely wear them. Yes, they may have only been $6, but in this economy why waste even that much on a pair of pants you will rarely wear? Still, I thought it was noteworthy that once again I found my pink pants.
On another note, going home can be a really good self-esteem booster. Having your family praise your efforts, compliment your children, and point out all the meaningful things you've done (even the things before this phase of life) can certainly help soothe the weary mind. Just being around people that love your kids unconditionally is medicine for the soul.
I have come to the realization that Alec is adorable, hilarious, and practically perfect when he has constant attention. He is excited about getting to do anything, he never has to go to time out because he never does things worthy of the punishment, he says funny things randomly that leave you rolling with laughter, and he is impressively sarcastic for a two year old.
I also think that Lyssa may have been switched out with a changeling. Who knew that teething could turn my princess into such a constantly dramatic screaming grouch! I have a friend who told me that when her little boy was teething for three months she kept thinking "what happened to my sweet baby!" At the time I didn't completely understand how a little child's behavior change so drastically. Now I think I do. I feel bad for Lyssa, but I feel bad for me too. I hope this phase passes quickly.
If I divulge much more I'm sure to regret it later. I guess I just have to keep reminding myself to keep the long term perspective in mind... even on a wonderful vacation to family.
A few words, eh? Like I've said before, why say it in 50 words when you can say it in 500?
4 comments:
Poor baby Lyssa! The great thing about these phases is that they pass. It's hard to remember that when you're in the middle of it, but those pearly whites will push through and relief will come. And it's the same with the dreaded "Two's". All kids would be angels if we did nothing but focus on them 24/7. But that doesn't build character - pushing boundaries does!
You've been on my mind... I hope all is well.
Oh, your label made me sad! I think it's humanly impossible for even the most selfless mothers to not need moments to vent and use the words "I" and "me" in a sentence. It's always hard venting on a blog because I worry that people reading it will think I'm a huge pessimist or something, so I understand what you mean. You are a totally awesome mom! The mother you've become doesn't surprise me at all because you were the same nurturing, caring person in college. Those kids are so blessed to have you!
So, I think these pink pants are calling your name. Seriously, go get them, even if they are big. :)
I think you're a great mommy. I know I've told you that before, but your kids, even with teething and stuff, are really well rounded. I'm happy that Alec is getting so much attention. He's hilarious! I was thinking today of his yelling "trombone!" when used to come to our house. And Lyssa, even with the sad crankiness of teething, is still such a sweetie.
Ah, that eternal perspective. Sometimes that's all that gets me through the day.
And on a very selfish note, I can't wait to have you back in Iowa. It's supposed to be a whooping 52 today, and Jakob would have loved to play with Alec outside. Soon, I have to tell myself.
Enjoy these last few days, and take advantage of it all you can.
Can't wait to see you guys!
Glad you're having fun. Can you come home now?? Please?
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