~Friday Thoughts~

I'm taking a brief break from my summer vacation recaps to clear my almost ready to explode head. Feel free to skip this one out if you don't want to deal with my ramblings... 

*Summer is my favorite season.  I feel like I missed most of the Summer this year because I’ve been pregnant and sick which is kind of a bummer.

*I always feel sad when Summer ends and the school year begins, even when I’m not in school.  I know lots of people love Fall, but I am not one of them.

*I actually cried last night when talking to Nick about how I feel like “I’m DONE with being pregnant.”  I think it freaked him out a little bit.

*I get really annoyed when people say “You don’t look like you’re done.”  I know they mean it in the nicest sense, but part of me can’t help but think, “How awful do I have to look before I look done!?!  Isn’t this bad enough!?!”

*I threw up again today while making lunch for my kiddos.  I think I’ve thrown up as much here at the end of my pregnancy as I did in the beginning.

*My mother may be one of the most active, un-lazy people in the entire world.  Lately I have not felt like my mother’s daughter.

*I haven’t had a real pedicure since May 2008.  Tonight I’m getting a pedicure and I'm REALLY excited.

*Since starting my iron supplements everything except rich sugary sweets have a metallic taste. 

*The doctors told me that within 3-5 days of starting my iron pills I should feel like I have more energy.  Funny that I feel like I have less energy than before most days.

*All week I’ve wanted fudge brownies or chocolate cupcakes.  Somehow I have resisted both cravings.

*I have a rule that I don’t turn on the oven if the outdoor temperature is above 85 degrees.  If this weather keeps up I’m going to have to break my rule. I really want brownies.

*Most of my close friends here in Iowa are currently pregnant.  There was something in the water last December through March.

*My kiddos seem gigantic to me all the sudden.  Seriously, when did they get so big?  When did Alec learn to reason and start remembering EVERYTHING?  And when did Lyssa get so SASSY? 

*I’m terrified that I’m going to have to eat my words after telling everyone everywhere that I will be having this baby early.  What if this is the one baby that I carry all the way to the end?  What if she’s huge?  Nick says I’ll just have to swallow my pride.  I have a feeling pride tastes really bad going back down. 

*The splash pads close on August 20^th.  I say once they are closed I might as well have this baby because what else am I supposed to do with my kiddos? 

*My mother and sister are predicting the week of August 23-28 for my delivery.  Nick starts class on the 24^th.  Alec has meet the teacher night on the 25^th, and his first day of preschool is the 27^th.  If my mother and sister are right it could be a crazy week. 

*Did you know the night of the 25^th is supposed to be a full moon?  Maybe I could have a werewolf baby... or I could just howl at the moon like a werewolf while I’m in labor.

*I reread ‘The Hunger Games’ and ‘Catching Fire’ this last month.  I’m anxiously waiting for the release of the 3^rd and final book ‘MockingJay’ which comes out August 24^th.  I wish it would come out now so I could have something to distract me.

*I wear the same three or four outfits over and over again.  It's going to take a lot not to burn them when I'm done.

*So far I’ve gained over 40 lbs. this pregnancy.  I think that is quite enough. 

*My ‘To Do Before the Baby Comes’ list is very very short now, and most of it is stuff I have no motivation to do… like organize the linen closet, clean out the kids bedroom closest, organize basement desk area, or make and hang new alphabet letters for basement walls.  None of that stuff really matters.  All the important stuff is done.

*I keep talking to my kids about what they were like when they were tiny babies.  They seem to enjoy it, especially knowing how very loved they were from the beginning.  I think I'm subconsciously trying to prepare them for what is coming.

*If I wasn’t less than a month away from my due date I would TOTALLY potty train Lyssa right now.  She’s pretty much ready, willing, and motivated.  I’m just not going there right now.

*Thunder, lightening, and bad dreams terrorize my little boy during the night.  He hasn’t sleep through the night once in the last two weeks.  Neither have his parents.  

* The one night Lyssa woke up during a thunderstorm she cried out not for Mommy, not Daddy dearest, but her beloved big brother, Alec.  They are so lucky to have each other.

*I’m nervous to send my little boy to preschool.  I’ve never sent him anywhere that I didn’t already know and trust the teachers, parents, or children.  I never thought I would be a mom who had a hard time letting her kids go, but I’m nervous to send him out even if it’s only 3 mornings a week.  I still have soooo much to teach him before the world gets their hands on him.

*I feel blessed to work with such a kind, flexible boss who is willing to let me work one 4 hour shift a week and hold my job until I’m ready to come back after I have this baby. 

*I keep hearing sad stories about people loosing babies, children, spouces… and every time I do I feel like such a wimp for complaining about anything.

*There is ALWAYS someone who has it worse off.

*There is ALWAYS something to be grateful for.  I’m going to try my best to focus on that but know that I’m done being pregnant.  J